
Woke up this morning after sleeping at 2 last night. The first thing i remembered hearing was "where is the camera?" And I replied. And he found it on my guitar bag which was just beside the location which i stated, because i put it there last week. And he got really angry. and started scolding me. At 4.10am! Then he asked for the second camera, which i passed to him. And i got more scolding". Whats more, i got left at home when i was promised being able to go see my helper off today at the airport. I did'nt get to even say goodbye to her. The only thing he said to me was "go to sleep! i expect you to be awake before your sister wakes up.(which he instructed to be 7am)" In my head was like.. "WHAT? but i was supposed to go see her off, you promised.." but i just said"okay" it was the right thing to do i guess.then the moment i reached my bed i started crying. It was like major overload! The first thing that happened when i woke up was almost as if i was supposed to go somewhere, but i got lost and stepped into a minefield instead, and got bombed even though i apologized. I can't even go to sleep now. And i really felt like calling someone to talk to, but i didnt know who... I felt like screaming, but everyone was sleeping. I felt like stuffing myself with chips and cup noodles, but i could'nt. So the only thing i could do was to talk to God and listen to worship songs, cuz they always make me feel better.
And its supposed to be good friday...!
a few things i felt:
1. Tired
2. Upset
3. Shocked
4. Hurt (obviously)
5. Embarassed
Well, im definitely not tired now that i went through drama/trauma this morning. Im not upset, shocked or hurt anymore because i feel really better after praying. But im still feeling a little embarrassed. My dad is the only one who can make go through a soap opera episode at 4am in the morning.
Well, i better think of something more light hearted before i go into emo mode.
Sunflowers and Strawberries! =D
They suddenly popped into my mind!
I suddenly feel like having chocolate fondue!! RAR!
With cookies and cream ice cream! SQUEE!
And i just feel so much better! =)
My dad is actually a very nice guy. Its just he has his quirky moments. as my mum likes to put it everytime i run to her to complain. "Quirky" haha.
I'm feeling way better now. But i still can't get to sleep.
draw three smileys on my palm! heh heh!
Well, "Bye Auntie Fergie! Please come back in two weeks! i'll miss you!! "